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I"m sitting in my apartment when I hear the sound of crashing glass outside my window. When I go to the window I see a mans legs hanging out the window of a car obviously stealing the contents of the glove compartment. I'm alone in my house and it's 1 am... I yell at him and he runs away.
I can't quite shake the jitters I feel - the sudden vulnerability in the realization that there are people in my neighborhood with bad intentions. I was outside getting a bag from my car while this guy was talking on his phone just a few minutes earlier.
I call a friend who's staying at my house for the weekend to see when he'll be home and really just wanted to call to talk to someone and get a comforting voice. I call the non emergency line and it's not working hours so I decide to call 911 for the first time to report a crime.
I wish that it didn't take the voice of a male friend to make me feel comfortable. It would be nice to be able to calm myself down without the help of a friend and be able to feel okay being alone. but alas - I'm human.
The police just called me back asking which way he ran so perhaps my good samaritan duty will work out well for my neighborhood.
It wasn't my car that was broken into but it's just my proximity to the crime. It takes moments like this to realize how lucky we are on most days. The delicate balance it takes to keep the world afloat is indeed fragile. I feel safe and strong most of the time and even though I'm shaken tonight I know that I live in a city that wants to keep crime down and I have friends that will help soothe my nerves. Life is shaky but good.
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Tirzah- Tonight I was questioning the insular nature of the environments we construct. Living in NYC, every so often I get a glimpse of what the tragedy of 911 must have been like. I work in a building like that. I marvel that things keep going- distractions in the wake of grief.
ReplyDeleteI now watch SVU religiously. Ripped from the headlines- in my city- women like me irreparably harmed. It's caused me to be both cautious and grateful. My biggest concern this year has been learning to overcome my often self-imposed obstacles. Hopefully, it will help me get over myself.