A little focus

I'm here, all alone, in a new country.  If this isn't the setting for me time, what is, right?  Yet, I haven't felt the incentive to do this bit of everyday magic that makes a difference.   So, I've decided to do a big chunk of it in September to make up for some lost time.   I'm investing in a yoga course that requires me to leave work on time and dedicate a whole weekend to improving my mental and physical well-being.  As Ms Tirzah knows- a lot of quiet introspection makes me more than a little uncomfortable.  I'm hoping that learning to be alone as I have over the past two months have set the stage for this experiment and next step in my self-improvement.

One thing I have been doing is writing about little local adventures through London on another blog.  I haven't felt the same adoration for London as I do NY, but the blogging it is helping me remain positive and motivated to make the most of it.  This realization reminded me of how much I enjoy this blog and how negligent I've been lately in both my "me time" and blogging on the more personal side.  So hopefully, you'll welcome me back.

Building Community... a never ending investment?

Amazing what a job can do for your sanity... with a somewhat steady schedule and the structure of an office, I am happily on the go-go. I'm way more productive when I have to squeeze in errands in-between other commitments. It's never perfect though is it?

With my job and home security get to a peaceful place, my friend and romance waves are in low tide. Most of my inner-circle community in Pittsburgh has moved to a new place and given me a lot more alone-time than usual. Time to re-build... the exact task that felt so insurmountable when thinking about moving to a new city. I guess this is just how the universe gets it's kicks. Somewhere in the clouds there's snickering and laughing while talking about these silly humans thinking that they could find peace in others rather than within themselves. Or maybe they're laughing at the importance we put on our physical place. Either way we are always pushed around by the things we cannot control.

Perhaps everything needs to wax and wain in waves of busyness and bounty. Right now is my time to focus on my work (that I actually Love) and balancing my schedule so that I take care of myself and allow my community to slowly evolve as it always does. With a little love and patience, there are always good things to flow.

The word transistion seems wimpy when you're in the whirlwind

I ran away from my life - and then I remembered, "Wherever you go, there you are". You can never truly get away from yourself - but pleasant surroundings can have a nice effect. On my island vacation with friends, I had a nice escape from my day to day reality and I gave myself time to think and relax. It wasn't until the last day that I realized I would be flying back to a city where I had neither job nor home nor lover and I had to work hard to keep myself on a positive note.

So what happened when I returned? My newly refreshed mind and body were ready to make things happen and I hit the ground running. Celebrated my friends in Pittsburgh, got things done and somewhere along the way I landed my dream job -

It's a temporary fix that could lead into something bigger but for now it's pretty darn perfect. I get to do research and planning that I'd want to do on my own - but I'll get paid to do it! Once I get settled into both my new job and my new home I'm sure I'll feel more grounded and ready to take on the balance challenge.

Maybe vacations really are a necessary part of keeping your life together and making yourself open to the good things that come along.

PS if you click on the title the link will send you to my friends blog that I found truly inspiring - enjoy!